Today, I am going to rant because I have no time to think of something creative to write about. As the spring semester came to a close, I took more hours at work so I work A LOT. I also recently lost a sibling. So, my spare time has been spent helping my dad clear out my brother's apartment. I hope to finish that up today. I might get to go swimming if I finish that today. I want so much to just relax. I feel as if since school let out I have only gained stress. I made 3 goals this summer. One, to read more books. Two, get more active and fit. Three, finally download music for the Ipod I received for Christmas. So far, I have completed a half of one of those goals. That's only a sixth of what I wanted to do this summer. I have read half of a book. I have also come to the conclusion, summer classes are not for me. I thought I had the time to do them, but I was very wrong. I feel crazy sometimes because I have so much going on it erupts out of me all at once and I can't explain to anyone why I feel the way I do. Maybe I am crazy. Am I crazy? I don't know. Who knows anymore. I guess this is more of a weird journal entry rather than a rant. I'm just being a crazy person rambling on and on, hoping no one will finish this thinking that's all I am. I like to think I am a somewhat substantial person. I read and write. I go out every once in a while. But it has been a long time since I got to so any of those things.. Its been a long couple of months guys.. I have a long way to go before reaching normal I think. You should really get to know me when I'm not in one of these ruts, it's a lot better I promise. I can be happy and silly when I want to be. I've just had to be so serious lately. But I'm not always like that. Well, I hope you guys stick around to get to know me a little better when things calm down.
Long story short, don't make goals. They never get done. It's like a to-do list that you forget to look at when the day comes to a close.
Also, don't lose anyone. It not only hurts, but it takes a long time to get back to normal.
I also have a cat, his name is Momo. I don't really know why I felt the need to add that, but here he is.
Everyone say hi to Momo! Okay, I'm crazy. But that's cool too. Until next time....
I'm sorry for your loss and your cat is so cute. I've lost a few people in my life as well and I know it hurts. I've never lost someone as close as a sibling though and I'm still now back to "normal." And I don't actually think people go back to the way they were because this type of thing changes us. I know life can be chaotic and plans always change, but it will be be okay. Just try and make a little time for yourself and take one day at a time. :)
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